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Discrimination based on LACK of religious belief is complete BS. Telling somebody you work with that they need to pray is inappropriate. So are lectures about what part conservative values played in the creation of this country while at work.

If i wasn’t in dire pain from kidney stones, I would elaborate and probably will in the following days. But really, take your job and shove it.

I need to find a job where it’s okay to be gloomy (and hot topic is out of the question)
I am a gloomy gal. Not Perky but usually very nice. But I wear my convictions on my sleeve and I can’t help if others are so insecure in their beliefs that they feel the need to force them on other people.

Right now I wish I could just sit and have a beer with Patricia, she’s always been able to make me feel better about bad situations or at least she did when we were campaigning together.

Theme of this past Year: You can’t always do everything, and be everything for everyone

My mission statement continues to be: 1.) Continue to make sure I am pouring my energy into real friendships 2.) Keep on doing the good, the payoff is around the corner.

Most grateful for:
- Living a life that is authentic and that continues to grow closer to resonating with my Souls Deepest Desires. (Stolen from Patricia)
- The amazing friends and family who believe in me and love me. (again, Patricia)
- Having the best roomate one could possibly ask for!

Biggest Gift:
- Getting a job as a Doula.
- Harmonious relationships with my family.
- Still living in the house I love and driving my dream car!
- Working things out with my boyfriend and having a great relationship!

Biggest challenges:
- Staying in the moment-in the here and now.
- Letting go of ways of thinking that no longer work for me. (it’s a daily decision).
- Cutting myself some slack.
- Being resilient.
(all of this came from Patricia but it rings true for me)

Best creative accomplishments:
- Gathering Supplies and Working on Sewing my first Quilt
- HaHa gave in to the WOW addiction and playing with some of my favorite people in the wold (including my boyfriend and my son)

Best realizations;
- My Life is only really good when I am surrounded by true friends and my family
- I can control being bipolar and how I react to things.
- I am grounded.
- I have everything I need.
- Life is more complex and conversely simpler than I ever imagined.
- The more love I give away the more it comes back to me, and usually it is from somewhere unexpected.

Best connections
- Catching up with some old friends from my high school days– including Jeremy who became my roomate
- Getting a closer connection with people like Cynthia who have proved to be better friends than I could ask for.
- Realizing that my Mom is my best friend.

Surprising discoveries:
- Love is something you work on everyday
- I need to stop going to LA when I am depressed– Need to go when I am happy and can enjoy every minute of it not just lump onto ZeBek’s Couch.
- Sometimes letting go of projects is the only sane thing to do. Wasn’t meant to be.

What was amazing about 2009 for you?

The last 7 days have been miserable. No heat in my house. Kidney Stones, headache, did I mention no heat?

Tomorrow is the big day, where I’ve been asked by my boss to come in and talk. I really hate that sinking feeling when you don’t know what’s coming, although it’s never good news when they want you to come in, can’t talk over the phone. I am trying not to over react or get overly stressed about it, a job is a job job job not worth getting in binds over.

Physical therapy to begin as of Monday and I cant be more excited to have somebody press on my back and neck 3 times a week, physical therapy is what got me through the grueling hours of the Obama campaign and I am hoping it will help me tolerate the extended shifts at my current job. Fingers crossed.

Well i’m off to either do homework or play WOW, gee I wonder what it will be. Haha.

xoxo

This little baby will be furnished in my kitchen ASAP. Droool!

Yesterday was Christmas and thank god that’s over. Although it was really lovely with my family, I just do not like the financial stress of it all. I got some great loot: a blue ray player from my sweetheart, a sewing machine, an amethyst necklace and a diamond ring.

Now it’s time to get back to normal. I’ve got plenty of things needing of tending, including my job and deciding whether or not this is something I want to deal with for the next two years and be insanely poor or do I wanna go work for another call center and hate waking up every day. Hard to say.

Being Bipolar, I have a tendency to get the impression that people are ganging up on me, or that a certain person doesn’t like me therefore making going to work almost painful because of the anxiety. I am trying to be positive about my current job, I really am.

Ahhh, why can’t I just come into a lot of money so I can go to school without working…haha yeah right.

Any way back to working on the features of the blog. I will update later. Hopefully going to play some WOW tonight, I am such a nerd. ugh.

Writing this blog makes me feel as though I am talking to myself.. can you hear me?

I have had this URL for so long, i thought that i might create a journal on it. Since prettyandtwisted.com is my photography portfolio I thought I would use this for my ranting space about life. I’m not feeling to ranty right now but it’ll come just stay tuned.